going tomorow

So its like I suddenly get lost in the wild
all the commotion that I drove to get hunted
comes back to hunt ....me
I'm eaten & biten
my fears rage inside me
my tears grow alive kicking and screaming
pulled by the enemy
I add more honey ....
to the pain




evidence comes crashing
and all I can think of is the athma in my heart
and the break in my soul
leaking all
leaking all


bleeding for life, the forest of this lifestyle is cold
for I no longer ask for help
I no longer trust in god
I no longer wake for faith


so I get scratched
slashed by all these useless thoughts
that I once fought
now fight me...
now hit me
with frozen despair
and agonising waste of time

I time... myself
over hours... that look like sour power over a film of forever drama
forver saga - I read and read and read
and read



and read


words I cannot see
I try to be????

what do I try to be
what am I trying to achieve...
who am I trying to become/?
if I met someone... what do I want them to see??
in me>>>

I dont want to copy
I dont want to trade.... my intensity for impatience


I don't want to die a failure
I've never thought about it like that before



I mean...
everyday goes by
like every day

when it should be
everyday
is
one
less
day