untitled evening

God I have so much to say
so much to believe in and so much to lose
I have so much to imagine -
everyday I live for something like a dream
it gets so close and yet al I Feel is
Nothing
I see... lies
and families breaking in front of my eyes
I have so much to say
but I lost one of the best friends I ever had
one of the most important people i could talk to
but
then again
maybe it came at a right time
losing them
I can now keep secrets..and a half

I feel like im the bad ending of a bad fairytale
I feel like my colour is pale and stale

God I have so much to lose
Dont lose me
I know it's selfish
Ive been selfish
But dont lose me