I don't know... I just don't know

its funny i guess

so many thoughts and dreams

and yet it all could be a road away

a couple of miles away

I came here for a reason

to get my life together

to start a new life

to love my life

and i am not doing any of those things

but i came here for other things

things i might not even know

about

like

...Love

loving myself

Loving God and faith

I don't know

I dream of cotton dresses fitting perfectly under a khartoum night blissful with family intentions and relations of love... food and stars glisten and taste of candy and watermelon in blaconies of retire... I have sides of hope and scope held in position and apposition to justify my life going right no need to be jealous or viscious - no need to be scared

no one is going to take something you own away from you

what God wants will happen

today you will not see

but it is not up to you ..to be

to be in control of this

its up to you to control somethings ,yes

but not this and that

I wish you would understand

your emotions are like the blizzard outside , going in one direction blowing and blowing anything in their way

asking for no discussion or meaning

just throwing cold as if heat

frozen moments in a cold apartment in your heart

I wish i was in sudan

living a life of fantasy

of agony with passion and dreams coming true

dreams i make with you

handsome eyes in my mind

falling armor within my hands

finished translation with your words