I never usually 18

I could watch this forever

I could , I could, I could

everytime i notice something

i feel something

different

I get stronger

its not affecting me in any other way

its not just entertainment

its not just a show

i can't let go

of the dream if purs in me

like my world wants something from them

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I perspire to work effortlessly at this

I ,

admire my strength so far

I do

but I do not admire my impatience

or my lack of gratitude

for all of this

has changed me

and i never usually change

and change even though might be good

can also be

...destructive

to be continued

..........>>>>

I never usually forget the most important thing in my life

I never usually become enstranged from my closest love

I never usually never wake up

but this time

I am very sleepy , very sleepy in this dream