I never usually 16

Maybe I should explain...

you see it was raining outside and the pearls of water fell on my window

trying to tell me a story

i was lost and unfound

and i listened to the words in the rain

angels in the sky, they take your prayers

and can give it a try

why else do you think the earth gets wet with all these dreams

of peoples imaginations , coming true

coming near you, are the wavers of a question

ask and you will get

ask and you can bet

you cant get more romantic than that

more simple than that

more heavenly than that

more true than that

be patient

be kind

be you

but when i looked at myself i couldnt find me

i only found parts of me that i could not understand

and so i began to find a way

which way?

and the more i looked, the more deeper i had to search for that woman inside me

she was so lost, so tired

so weak , non defensive,

so far down in a big black hole

crying, crying, eyes so small

those eyes i lost to prisons voloptous statements of impurity

those ears i lost

to making people angry

those times i lost

eating

at my heart

at my mind

i considered the opposing fantasies

guess im just not an interesting person

guess ill just never find a love so interesting

guess i dont deserve to find that pearl of water to collect my wishes

clean my dirty dishes of ...exaggurated heartbeats and adrenaline