I never usually 8

she came and shattered my dreams

from a place that she grew from, where thorns made her way

she came to prick me with her memories

to try and save me?

but she took my precious fantasy

and scattered it over her ground of wars

look here, she said

nothing is real#nothing is far

u silly girl

I smiled and hid my remains

hid all my pain

of her truth

she wanted to try help me

but she broke me

and tore me

gushing all my love on the ground

pouring all the love that i found

from this special romance

that id never seen before

i showed her

i showed her the strength they made

the strength i trade

with all these feelings

but she couldnt understand

that i understood nothing but this

nothing but his eyes

nothing but her feelings

nothing but their love

this isnt just a series

this isnt just a love story

this is s0mething that has delved deep inside me

loved me , and i loved it back

it is the first thing in a long time, such a long time,

to make me ...change

i never usually change

i never usually get so strong

this is the first something in my true ideas to make me believe

I want it to stay

I want it to save me

I want it to be with me

all the time

and so i balanced her words

and my armor of detail

I looked at my heart and what it felt

what it wanted to feel

what my eyes have been eating on

what my mind had starved

and suddenly all the shattered pieces collected

all the dangling stars re lit again

and i never usually am like this

i never usually dont get affected by peoples memories, by peoples pain

but i am not affected

I am defending my dreams