Tonnes of Sin

I want to scream – I want to run away into the distance and never come back – I want to hate myself as I always do – never like before – I want to change myself - return myself – punish myself – i want to eat Saturn - i want to drink Neptune’s ghost – i want to discover the pain of mercury – I want to flame in mars – i want to vanish in Pluto –the smallest living death – I want to cry and cry and cry and cry – until like a baby i am given the answer – i am given the solution – I am allowed to stop crying – I want to cry and cry and cry and cry – until there are no more tears – until there is no more old me – until there is a new me –I want to stop crying for me –I want to stop crying for me