I have nothing more to say

I have to find a way

I have nothing more to say

I am killing myself everyday

Doing what I do in this untamely spray

Of disobedience to the body

I know it must be in agony

somewhere crying for me to STOP

I have to find a way

I am silent cold and grey

About the lost colours that I no longer array

For it is hidden behind gross confinement of a vast mishap

Unoticed

Never noticed

Never understood

I told myself that I would

I know that I should

I thought that I could

But I misunderstood

I have nothing more to say

I have lost my personal fray

By betraying what I had to display

As ones courage, involvment in life by commitment

I put down my swords and opened to punishment

I have nothing more to say

I am angry and I pray

That I can fix my terrible portray

Of a broken soul

I have nothing more to say

Except embarrassment and sick...ness

In the deepness of my embedded burning out energy

I have nothing more to say