Echoes in my mind _ (not meant to be like this)

Terror when I see my face
Feelings of disgrace
I didn't mean it to be like this
But suddenly images twirled of disaster
My head hurt + broke faster
Everyone misunderstood me
Even me
And I didnt' want it to be like this
That's not the way it was meant to be

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Tranquility in space, feelings with no trace
my music of understanding - loses face
Falls waste
Waste - I'm afraid of missing out
From the deep end of what it's all about
Yelping in a zone of crazy agony
Madness crossroads
I can't choose which madness is better
I can't decide which chaos is less demented

I want a visitation to my soul
Ask it why it let me fall -